Day 2

Sunday Evening :), I studied a few chapter of Research Methodology,
Is not easy, because although i only focus a few chapter, but it really alot of thing to read

Before i continue everything, i watch a really touched video,
This video really make me feel so touched.
The feeling inside me is amazing and cannot be describe at all
I am 100% full of feel whenever i think of something
This is because i trust miracle can happen.
Life is not easy without challenge :)
Take 12 minute of your time, watch this video.
I guarantee it will give you the strength to move on in life.

Continue back to study, Today will be a good good day! This semester will not be easy.
Oh well, today my group of friend went to broga hill,
i want to go badly =/
I not kidding, i really want to go, but i know if i go, i will really be exhausted, and waste half of my day sleeping. I cannot afford to do it because i still need to study. I got 3 paper in 2 days, i only can sacrifice that playing time to study. Everyone telling me, last minute study lah, sure can work or so on. I did, i last minute study in the past. the reason why i study because i know my mark is very low.
I am afraid to fail, Is not good to fail in any paper. I almost graduate d, i not to continue fail in my paper anymore. Not again.

Sometime, get tease by someone, just let it be.
As long as i know i doing the right thing, and do it in the right time is more than enough
Play? Enjoy? I want it so badly =/
Exam, i hate u so much

1st day challenge

I rewrite again my blog,
This will be the personal diary or blog for me in the future.
I accepted a challenge from someone about losing weight.
Yeah,of course is not easy. In the same time, i not going to tell anyone i wrote about this.
If not people start to laugh about me.
Well, well well,
I believe blog is still the better place for me to release out what i feel compare with twitter or facebook.
I don't judge people much, but i just want to know something more deeply
Who actually can judge me? or i should said , who actually got the "power" to judge me?
No one at all !
I never drop my tears for quite sometimes already. Not because i got nothing to cried, just that, i tell myself to be brave once in a while
Let it be the challenge in my life, the challenge that i can accept it no matter where i go.
I don't change my personality for people.
I will still stick back with the same me, same personality and the same way as what i do :)
A question come out to me, do i still have the potential to go after girls?
i can said 0%. I just a rubbish for certain time.
Well well well, Nvm, enough of rubbish, i think i shall start enjoy my life.
This month will be a wonderful month for me, because is my birthday and in the same time, i can celebrate with so many people. So many event for this month.
Awwwww man !

So my weight now is 110 KG, i will try to control my food that i consumer this month, and see what is my weight for day by day.

It was 5 months ago since i post, and there is really a lot of thing happen,
I start to gain weight? of course, i just don't know why,
and i really start to understand something.
The reason why i am here, i mean blogging, because i want to said it out something,
My friend, wait , i should name her my superb close friend remind me of something,
she told me something which make me really understand what i really want, and what i really want to do,
Is been 2 years, since that day, i just unable to forgot about you.
Because you bring me too much of memories, i can said there is no one can replace you from my heart.
My friend ask me, who is the girl that i love? what kind of requirement?
when i told her my requirement,
she just reply me, you're looking for someone similar like your ex, you're trying to find a replacement that have a similar look, but this doesn't mean that i really will like her, i just found someone like you. That's what i am doing now. She remind me, i should open up my heart, in a way of accept a girl, i will never ever find a girl like you anymore, so i should always tell myself, i need to start to forgot about it. Do not ever think about you as a burden for me. I am no longer the one that hold on with u. I should forgot about you and move on, She reminded me, and i really appreciate for her help
Thanks CMY.
from now on, i will start to change myself into a better person, The past, is already over, now is the future .

Well Done Ivan Chong Sai Khong,
Is nice to see you again ! cheers!
I just know that i had make myself improve from year to year :)
For the past 2 years, i really think that i changed alot,
I no longer a guy that really don't do serious or so on,
I just know that, if i never move on, i will never succeed in my life,
Yeah, so? what so interesting about blog btw?
It might be a normal thing, but where is the place where you can look at the past memories u had?
Yea, thats right, BLog is a good choice, i don't believe people will actually look at diaries or so on
I blog since 2007, my grammar is weak, i don't expect many reader as well,
i only want to know my past, and what i improve in my life
:), There was the past, but now is the present, i am moving on for the future.
No longer stuck in the past anymore.
I just know that, fairy tale never exist, do not wait for it, and go for it instead :)

Blog time
;) juts in a mood to blog,
I think i will be facing a huge obstacle in my life in the next 1 month,
That is really hell,
Somehow i just don't know how to face it, I only know, i need to face this challenge
Cheers

Flashback,
What had happen for the past 1 year,
i change alot, did i?
OR JUST what i think only?
i really got no idea what i typing,
i look back what i've doing, i just tell myself,
so another day had gone?
awww
like that day my friend told me before,
i feel lonely? yeah i am.
i actually feel so lonely, especially at night,
it seems like,
something is gone in my life, what can i do somemore?
i hope something miracle will happen to me.
I just don't know.
Maybe the truth is, i still not manage to climb back up from the hell.
The past is the past
something that cannot happen in the future
life is so suck

Happy birthday to myself

The month of July, August and September,
1 by 1 month slowly pass,
I enjoy myself , start to understand how important is friendship surround me.
I been busy studying, reading, playing, hang around, but somehow,
Something is always missing, I don't really know what is that,
I know got something is missing from my heart,
what kind of thing? I really don't know. Behind the wall, i actually understand how important my life,
aiks
i also don't really know what i want,
can anyone , actually wake me up?
pour water on me or how?
I still without direction.
aiks.

Happy birthday to myself, :)
I finally 21 !
haha, actually no different, i celebrate my 21 last year, this year again? x)
not much different compare with last time,
but at usual, i official got my key ;)
I wish i got the freedom as got the key.

Thanks to my friend from uni that celebrate with me.
I enjoyed it so much
Spend time to singK, FIFA, drink, and have dinner at MAIU,
really amazing,
thanks for the celebrating :)
it is nice to know all of you.

A small group, but a close friendship
Munyi,Nigo,Shirley,Chunren,Desmond,Alex,Raymond
Fangyin, me

:) and oh yeah. Happy Birthday to Fangyin as well :)
1 day after me , It is a good surprise for her too ;)

Not to forget, i still got the best buddies !
Although i don't have the picture,
But you all have been the best in my life.
Thanks to Munchun,Philip,Chor,WaiLoon,Yujian,Ivory,Thiamwee , and not to forget 1 of my close fren, waisoon too, now still stuck at Labuan :)


haha, and not to forgot, i got 1 superb baka close friend :)
Tan Kai Lin,
Thanks for the called :)
thanks for the long distance call from Australia
appreciate it so MUCH :)
Really my baka friend, haha,
sorry that i couldn't celebrate your birthday :)
but i wish you all the best at australia
:)
Peace girl

GOOD LUCK
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