Actually, i got no idea what i am thinking now. Everything i think about, make me so confused.
I need to understand what i want?
Chong Sai Khong, how to differentiate love? care? touched?
Actually i don't know. I really don't know how to differentiate it.
Last time, when i face this kind of problem, someone will actually listen to this and tell me did i do wrong or not. Or the other way.
Now? Am i thinking a negative thing?
Or a positive?

Actually? who i actually love? i know i don't have the potential or choice to choose.
I know i am not whatever superb lengzai and rich people
But i know there is something inside me.
I just don't know how to describe it out only.
Maybe i should just consider, all is my friend.
normal hang out with them
that is my life
i think is better in this way, however, i feel i getting closer to her. but i feel i getting a big gap in the same time
OMG
i really dont know what i thinking now
shit

Blog again? haha
I failed to blog for the past 1 month because i got nothing to write or describe what i feel.
Lets begin with voice out what i feel. Oh well,
I had a great mix feeling inside me. The feeling that i couldn't said it out.
It doesn't really feel good. I just dont know what how to describe it.

I wish i can said it out, need release. Am i too weak to really go after it?
Or just a random feeling?
I feel it. I know is very random that i got this kind of feeling.
I rather don't think about this and continue with my life. But i tell myself, no
something had change inside me. Something had gone from bad to worst.
Oh well, I should identify what i think before i advance and really know is that true or false.

So, today i wrote a status at facebook, do we really have a choice or not?
I wrote it because i saw a insta from my friends.
Is true, and i agree what she said. What is out limit? Do we really make the correct choice?
OR a  wrong choice?
But i love the way she answer as well.
I would rather make a mistake and continue grow become stronger in life, rather than stuck inside a place forever.
This is a challenge of our life.
We don't born to follow the cycle. We are born to be different.
Born to be the best in life.