Emotional
hmmmm,
True also,
Why until now still need control?
Why still need to see your face?
Come on, 21 coming soon?
Still like this?
If u said i over limit,
I don't think so lo.
I control myself alot already,
And not u said i over limit?
Come On,
If i over limit,
U will know how much it is.

Really speechless.
Sometime really hope i move out.
And stay,
Nothing disturb me.
And i can have more freedom.
Aiks
Life is so hard.
Especially for me.

I got nothing to do now,
So i decided to watch despicable me.
A movie that i take from Philip
Hmmmmm,
Plan to watch this long long time ago.
 Since nothing to do

Let me set a target for 2013 (confirm people will laugh)
1)Good Result
2)Lose Weight
3)*P&C*

Peace

31st December 2012.
This will be the last day of the year.
This year can consider one of the worst year for me.
Failure in relationship, academic and alots more
Well,
I still remember last year,
I hope for alot of things,but none of it came true.
This time.
I need to set target for myself.
I want to achieve it in the year of 2013.
Can i be succeed?
That will be a question.
:)
But i experience alot of things.
Thanks to u all =)

Sometime,
I really miss a girl.
I post it out yesterday at facebook,
and my friend give a comment which i really agree with it.
2 of them give a good answer which make me so satisfied with it.
"the worst feeling is missing someone that you know he/she will not miss you"
and
"missing someone is Nth.. missing someone but have to act like u not bothered about him and her.. that feeling is like a sharp knife located below the heart.. :x"

 hmmm.
true, to act do not bother about it, it is really hurt.
Although for the past 1 week,
I act like nothing happen, but it's not easy to handle it.
Until today,
i really regret, why i need to said it out?
WHY?
the moment that we use to have a wonderful chat, wonderful talking and hear each other story.
Sometime will make u laugh.Already no more.
I don't think it will be exist anymore.

Someone told me,
U dare to said u never think about her?U dare to said u never stalk her account at facebook?
i did, i think of her, in the same time, i also miss her and stalk her account.
I really hope,1 day, i can turn back the time.
Nothing is worst than that.
Nothing at all.
 
In the end,
I am just a guy, which has nothing at all
=/
PEACE  

Sleep more,
it's good for health :)

When I'm free,
I will start to
Write blog,
That's the thing that i will do now
:)
But,
No topic.
=.=!
any idea?
 Oh yeah! Just to mention
BYE BYE TO 2012 :)!
2013, a new challenges,a new life
PEACE

Decided to stop blog for a moment.
Since no reader.
And no point i continue
x)

Just went back from outside.
Christmas celebration?
wasn't in the mood to celebrate at all.
Sometimes only hope, but nothing will come true.
That is the fact.
A short period of time can remind me a lot of thing.
The end of it . I am not ready to let it go.
=/
Although i need to admit. *white flag*
no power to go for it anymore,
I am not there to do it anymore.
I hope i can remain back who i am x)
The lame/funny guy? or perasan guy?
PEACE

All

I

Want

From

Christmas

Is 

U

x)

I know its impossible

PEACE

Today,
really appreciate to my friend x)
my friend pinjam me internet to online
and i can blog also although i at my hometown.
thanks to mun chun, philip, wailoon and thiam wee that came from pj as well.
a long trip to lepak at menglembu,kellie castle, perak cave, sam poh tung...
a short trip,but a meaningful trip.
official ignore by u.
well, nothing i can do much already.since u decide to do it.what can i do?
i only can wait and wait.
really feel so lonely without u.
i'm not joking.
ytd night, i hardly can sleep,because i actually think about u.
well,
although u said its impossible,
but it doesn't mean i cannot think about u.
i can hide my feeling, i can keep quiet, but why need ignore,
the worst thing for a guy is to being ignored by the girl they love.
i got not much thing to do.
i only hope u dont ignore me.
that is the only thing.
unless , u really together back with him
than i got nothing can do.
=/
i went to perak cave today, i actually hope that i can climb up and have the nice view that u mention.
you mention last week, perak cave is really nice, and a nice environment after climb on top.
i wish i can have the same view too.
but its too late, i reach there late, and they dont allow me to go top.
well. sad thing for me.:(

*don't ignore me please*

Appear offline it's not the way.
I used to said it.
Be brave and face it,
rather than hiding from it
PEACE

x)
A sweet dream yesterday night,
Although its short, but i can remember what i dream.
PEACE
Later will be going back to my hometown.
So rush ?
actually it's already decided last week, then inform me already.
Ytd inform me no need go back,
and suddenly inform me need to go back =.=
well, so if that is the decision,
go back and relax bah.I think its a good choice as well.
Can meet my grandparents and have a long chat with them =)

Nothing much i can do already =/
Only want the time pass quickly.
That is the only hope that i want now =/
Well, Life is so difficult.
3 days in hometown, confirm will be BORING
=.=! nothing to do much, so i won't be in PJ for this 3 days,
Unless its on monday which is X'mas eve.
But i guess you won't be free either.
Well,
maybe another day?
Boring day, boring life,
How wish got people accompany me.>.<
But It's impossible as well.

PEACE
-signing off-

Dear Blog,
I been updating you for the past 2 weeks x)
well well, i guess its time to slowdown soon.
Nothing much i can mention already.
Well well, Sometime i regret, why must i said it out?
i rather hide it than let u know and feel awkward in this moment.
That is something i want try to avoid, but end up,
It actually happen.
Well ,I choose to said it out, really regret of that.
Back to few days ago, we are really close to each other,
Its really change very very fast.
I think i will have less 1 person to chat with, a good friend that i can share my secret,
as well as i am a successful listener?
Nothing to regret anymore, once i said it out, nothing i can do anymore.
Maybe that will be consider the end?
wow, so fast.
I hardly believe it......
Happy & Sad in the same time to hear the answer.
Yes, i am crazy. :) but i love the way you reply.
Although it actually hurt abit, but that answer make me satisfied and the most important no lies~
settle the problem, and do the right that.
That is the thing that i need to do.
I'm glad 2012 never come to the end, but something had come to the end.
The moment we use to have a superb close chat,
Until willing to wake up and reply sms no matter what time.
That thing won't happen anymore..
life change. x)
god thank you so much =)
although is short, but i will miss it .
<3 br="br">

I already get the answer that i want to hear.
The most important is,
You didn't lie to me.
That is the good answer and a good reason i want to know.
Thanks so much.

If you don't want me to disturb you,
Please let me know,
If you don't want to see my message,
Please let me know,
Rather than let me think of it whole night.

-PEACE-

Being emo is something that cannot been escape in our mind,
Being happy is an emotional reaction when you love something.
It will direct you into something.
I need to handle it. x)!
as much as u now.
Somehow, that is a good thing, but don't just keep think of it until it distract your mind.
Tomorrow is going to be 21/12/2012.
So fast?
yeah exactly, and i would like to said it out ;)
I fall in love you. I really does, there is something inside you that cannot be get in other place. If give me to choose,end of today, I will said that. Nicole, I love you .<3 br="br">

Another day had gone,
It's not easy to play around with friend x)
well well :)
Went singK today, another long day .=.=!
although i suck in singing, but i do enjoy it.
Especially when i heard some songs.It's really nice.and suit the feel.
Well, I actually have a weird feeling now
I don't know how to describe it.
Or i just don't know how to handle the situation .

Sometimes, i still think, am i the only one that action?
well, i understand u need time.
that is the reason, sometime i don't want to disturb u.
But i need to have fully confident to overcome this.
That is the fact that i need to settle .
Life isn't easy.

I actually, already prepare the X'mas present :)
I wonder when can i give u that <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">PEACE

19/12/2012.

Gratz to my parents x)!
Today was their 24th Anniversary :)
Went out with them to eat steak together.. Woot ! at Cheras =.=! freaking,jam 1 hour 15 min only reach!
Long journey out,but its worth, because we enjoy together and enjoy the meal as well :)!
Well, I admit,we quite "Dai Sik".because we eat freaking alot =.=! and the price also okok x)!
Affordable for me . PEACE

Day by day getting more gan jeong , but don't care about that first .
This few days, I getting more tired, maybe i sleep late almost everyday.That is the reason?
And maybe that's alot more.
Back to ytd , my heart really feel so luen of something, but now, completely different,
I am willing to wait every minute, every second for it ;)
Why not? because It need time for everything.

Oh yeah, now its already 1.56am, Less than 24 hour more its 21/12/2012 x)!
The world's ending???? NO~~~
Neh, who cares about that,
It's just a news that spread around.=.=!
But i believe, everyone is waiting for that day to come :)!
And ready to said hi to 22/12/2012 x)!

Crap that out, oh yeah.X'mas i unable to date u out x)! Can i date u out another day? x)!
I hope it will be a special day as well <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">-signing off-
I miss u

Don't know why, i feel so touched of this sentence.
It's just a short but meaningful quote.
It's not easy to do it,But it will guide to me do it :)
Today, I finally said it out, Because i don't want to hide from it already.
A yes or a No answer can simply make me satisfied.
It's really awkward when i said it out, especially to her that time.
But phew, lucky i manage to handle it x) "self-praise"
I receive my answer from my question, That answer is good and fair enough.
Because i understand the feeling of it, Some people might think i take chance.
But it isn't. I know and understand your story since it begin, and i know it's hard for you.
But i will be there all the time when u need me,
I will be there support u.
and the most important,
No matter how long does it take, I will slowly wait for x)
Unless, u give me a red light symbol.

PEACE

my 460 post.
haha, i still remember last time when i reach my 100post,i wrote alot of thing.
well, that really changed my life x)
its good to blog, because when u read back the past.u will miss it so much.and sometime wondering.
does this thing occur?or happen?
well x)


Action should be taken,that is what i going to do soon . :)
i hope i get a good response, and not a negative respond.
Yeah,somehow, i realise receive your msg is more sweet than any other thing.
That is the fact. that cannot be change.
I wish i can continue to have this kind of feeling.But it needs time.
that is the thing that i know x)
I wonder will u have the same thinking as me?
as for me , i miss u now.
that's the thing that i know :)
Can i date u out?

Peace

17/11/2012,
What can i said about it?
well, some people said i already immune, some said i already used to it,
but what really happen? actually i don't really care about it. Unless certain thing that will effect other people. If is about me, i'll just ignore it. That is the best solution that i think.
Well, a long journey today.
but no matter how long is the journey, it still will be shorter than what i having now.
I feel bad ytd midnight, i really speechless about it. =/. hiding something isn't easy, but what can i expect from it? said it out? then hard to be friend? I admit i interest, but not dare to go ahead.
Well well well, It's not the matter of hiding,its the problem i afraid.
That is the worst thing ever.
I actually want to know, am i playing alone? am i the only one? If yes, i hope that i can found out about it.
aiks. life is life,
that is something that cannot be change.
I want to care about u, I want to have the opportunity to try again.
Although I not good in everything, But can i ?

i find a nice quote x)

"Texting the same person all day and all night, and never getting tired of it,because u like them very much"

Another day,
actually today was kinda relax, i spend the whole afternoon,
relax , only take some time to wrap present only :)
besides that, overall was a perfect day.
later will go out for sports which is badminton.
hmmmm,
Don't know why, although i not good, but i want to have fun ^^.
Its wonderful u know, especially when u feel the heat in the body.
oh well,
who knows .
hmmm,
Well, i heard from my friend,sometime if thing drag too long, it will become negative,
What can i do about it ? Yeah, should i advance my step into a higher step? or should i remain in 1st floor? Nobody can tells me . Nobody will know.
Sometime i afraid is "tepuk sebelah tangan",
If that is the fact, i rather don't go for extra step, because its more worth to remain in this stage.
well, Its not easy to feel it. Although i want to feel it.
Any good advice?
I remember a msg,When u wake up, the first thing u want to do is get a msg from her or u will msg her.
That is a good message in the beginning, but what happen if she just treat u as friend?
nothing more than that?
what will happen then? I love to chat with u. when chatting with someone, it really hard to stop.
that is the fact :)
Well,
i think i better stay in this stage rather than go an extra step further, unless a tips for me......

-signing off-

16/12/2012

countdown of 5 more days
=/
Scared or not?
well,just a date. If the world really going to end,let it end.
That is the best choice and solution.
Actually wasn't in a mood today,
but i push myself to stay happy and positive mind.
Not everyone understand about me,
well,sometime i think back, why i am the only son? that is really not good.
This make parents control my life, and not to mention this or that, Sometime it really annoying.
When i stay at home, u said i always face computer, i go out,then give me black face.><!
sometime really don't know what can i do. I already did my best to be the best, but sometime,really hard.
I am not that kind of people. I used to my life which is communicate more with friends.
That is me. Well, Better don't mention so much about it.
hmmm, but i will continue stay positive although i face a problem.

Somehow, once in a while, i remember back someone. Well, when something already appear in our mind,
that is something we cannot erase it easily, try overcome it. That is the choice that i doing now.
hmmm hmmm hmmm,
I wonder also, sometime, if i can be in a relationship,what type of relationship can i be?
Well, after somehow,i realise, i do not have the power to choose, the power to choose is in girl's hand.
I only can be there and wait for answer =/
An action is a need if want go, if not it will fly away.
Well, can i grab it? and hold it for long?
I also got no idea. i just wish it can stay as long as it.
that is real lie .
a challenge for life <3 p="p">I need to be motivate to stay strong and make sure i'm dare to go after it .
If i lose it, i scared i won't be able to grab it.
Oh well, hope time is the thing that can go through it. Although i admit now is not the time.
Because i actually have a feeling of scared/curious/sad if she had other people.
Well, what can i do about it?
nothing except wait x)!
-signing off-

14/12/12

Someone has mention today was something valentine day,
i actually think back,
what so special?
valentine is just a date.
That's all,nothing much to explain about it.
Oh well, that is life, everyone should enjoy the life.
So sad , but the fact is, everyone cannot get what they want,
that is the fact,
oh well, this few days, don't know i feel so lonely,
OH NO!
Back to december?
Well, i admit, i miss the moment to have a girl friend, especially when have relationship,
because that kind of sweetness, is not easy to achieve at anyway.
That is the fact, relationship really can change  someone life to be different,
I miss that kind of feeling.
Who can give it to me?
well, i don't know who can, but i hope that will be posible .
When really want to go after someone, and u realise u are not good at all will automatic drop the morale.
That is the problem,
I not good in so many thing.
What to do, what make me got power to go after anyone?
Really no comment.

12/12/12,
nice date right?
what do u think? 
well,
alot of thing happen in the past 2 week,
i official finish my exam already.
Although i know,i sure will need to retake 1 subject,
but no choice,study hard for it lo.
i admit i suck in that subject, is not easy to understand it as well
after finish exam,i went to pc fair and work there,
this year pc fair really suck,useless.no customer at all.
but i also get money only,so i no need care so much already.
x)
x)

Well, continue,
12/12/12, went out with mc,mz and nicole to Midvalley,
main purpose is to watch
twilight breaking dawn part 2,
it was a nice movie,
a good and happy ending,i wish those thing happen in reality,
but its imposible.

Normally,when watch the movie 2 time, confirm will get bored,
dont know why this time i won't.maybe i get addicted to the show?

and at night, the most funniest thing ever,3 ma lat lou go makan steambout "king sam si", and go through 12/12/12.

Fairy tale doesnt exist.
Yeah, the previous post i mention i want to watch with someone,
although i never mention who, it's better to be quiet,
because, sometime said it out, it will be awkard and hard to be friend as well.
that is something that need to be settle, i don't dare to start anything already.
I scared of it as well. I dislike when people said, u start it through social networking?(internet)
so lifeless? well, communicate more is the best way, and understand first.
Keep it quiet is the best way as well. i enjoy my life now,and i hope everyone does.

Another question appear,
if 21/12/2012 is the last day of the earth?
what is going to be your last thing that u want to do?
i got no idea as well,
but somehow, if i got someone that i love
i want to her,
"i love you",

that is the real thing and i think the most memorable for me .
PEACE