Blog time
;) juts in a mood to blog,
I think i will be facing a huge obstacle in my life in the next 1 month,
That is really hell,
Somehow i just don't know how to face it, I only know, i need to face this challenge
Cheers

Flashback,
What had happen for the past 1 year,
i change alot, did i?
OR JUST what i think only?
i really got no idea what i typing,
i look back what i've doing, i just tell myself,
so another day had gone?
awww
like that day my friend told me before,
i feel lonely? yeah i am.
i actually feel so lonely, especially at night,
it seems like,
something is gone in my life, what can i do somemore?
i hope something miracle will happen to me.
I just don't know.
Maybe the truth is, i still not manage to climb back up from the hell.
The past is the past
something that cannot happen in the future
life is so suck

Happy birthday to myself

The month of July, August and September,
1 by 1 month slowly pass,
I enjoy myself , start to understand how important is friendship surround me.
I been busy studying, reading, playing, hang around, but somehow,
Something is always missing, I don't really know what is that,
I know got something is missing from my heart,
what kind of thing? I really don't know. Behind the wall, i actually understand how important my life,
aiks
i also don't really know what i want,
can anyone , actually wake me up?
pour water on me or how?
I still without direction.
aiks.

Happy birthday to myself, :)
I finally 21 !
haha, actually no different, i celebrate my 21 last year, this year again? x)
not much different compare with last time,
but at usual, i official got my key ;)
I wish i got the freedom as got the key.

Thanks to my friend from uni that celebrate with me.
I enjoyed it so much
Spend time to singK, FIFA, drink, and have dinner at MAIU,
really amazing,
thanks for the celebrating :)
it is nice to know all of you.

A small group, but a close friendship
Munyi,Nigo,Shirley,Chunren,Desmond,Alex,Raymond
Fangyin, me

:) and oh yeah. Happy Birthday to Fangyin as well :)
1 day after me , It is a good surprise for her too ;)

Not to forget, i still got the best buddies !
Although i don't have the picture,
But you all have been the best in my life.
Thanks to Munchun,Philip,Chor,WaiLoon,Yujian,Ivory,Thiamwee , and not to forget 1 of my close fren, waisoon too, now still stuck at Labuan :)


haha, and not to forgot, i got 1 superb baka close friend :)
Tan Kai Lin,
Thanks for the called :)
thanks for the long distance call from Australia
appreciate it so MUCH :)
Really my baka friend, haha,
sorry that i couldn't celebrate your birthday :)
but i wish you all the best at australia
:)
Peace girl

GOOD LUCK
PSPS:steal from FB

My final in 3 days time?
hahahahahahah!
I don't feel stress at all now -_-
I just don't know why
I only think of, what to play next time, after my final!
COME ON!

Aiks, this is totally different from what i experience,
is not easy to study,
but i feel like, what should i read somemore?
aiks
speechless

CSR

Finally, most of the assignment, test and project is over,
going to concentrate study next week onward :)
I looking forward for the final.
It will not be easy, but as long as i got confident,
i can do it !
:)
I learn a lot of thing for the past 1 month,
it is really amazing :)
I feel the fun inside me, however, also got problem
Life is like this,
sometime, we will be happy, sometime we will be sad.
But amazing, i enjoy my life ^^

Talked about project,
yeah, i just complete the CSR project.
It is really amazing
just the way you are,
The best ever thing is work in a group,wait, should said team.
We are the best team, none of us can be separate !
We are the team that complete the CSR!
Although is not easy, we have arguement but in the end,
everyone contribute and make the project into the success,
Thanks everyone!

Group Photo

Top Left - Right , Me, Yi Lin, Hui Min, Wei Yi, Miki, Bao Sian,Menaga , Erika

Bottom Left - Right , Brian, Zi Yung, Ah Xiang , Kah Jun, Lucas

Not in photo- Pamela

Fantastic team!

Final report hand in ! :) AMAZING

Today really another bad luck day,
fell down, and injured my leg,
fucking pain !
SHIT

hmmph,
friends,
there is alot of type,
some of it can accompany u,
some of them, understand u,
some of them hate u,
some of them love u,
and i categorizes u in a special way.
I am ok with anything,
I no need to said anything,
i can chat and listen to anything, anytime,
Is not the problem for me.
Sometime,
Don't do it until so obvious.
Oh well,
What can i said about it? nothing
because is not my decision.
However, i do have a group of trustable friend. :)

Being cool is not the a good thing,
smile all the time can bring unhappiness as well,
especially when the feeling really come to it.
there is too many thing for me to handle for the past few months
so tired,
I just can said,
well, all decision is not make by me.
I don't decide anything.
sometime,
i just need someone for me to talk to....
lonely, yeah, i can feel it once in a while.
That is nothing i can ignore about,
i said it out,
doesn't mean that i don't really mind.
i just ...
speechless..


hmmm

Hmm,
Alot of thing happen in between April till now,
and now i decide to start blog again,
:)!
Dear reader, miss me?
miss my broken english and my lame blog?
u will read it soon :)
I will start again!
come on gogogo!

but need study for test soon :(

Chong's Family reunion and birthday celebration

Its me me me me me! Ivan chong Sai Khong
XD!

HI to all again!
x)!
Its time to blog again!
OMG! Holiday just finished?
2 weeks gone just LIKE THAT?
fish IT!
although i don't really spend time and have fun this holiday,
but i still manage to went back to ipoh with Mun Chun and Thiam Wee and meet Ivory there.
just a 24 hour trip.x)
but, really bad luck trip =/
go that time trouble,come back trouble.
aiks..
but at least,
it will be a fun day.

hmmm,
rush back on saturday evening because i have family dinner.
celebrating my urmm.. consider as my grandmother (pak po) birthday
a wonderful day , because i see all the Chong's family is here.
Its like a family reunion,
sometime,
once in awhile,
it is wonderful to meet the family,
even Chinese New Year,
not everyone is back for CNY. some unable to take off,
that is the hard thing. >.<!
but thanks to all, we have a wonderful birthday celebration at Moon Palace Puchong.


let the picture describe my family :)
my wonderful family
(see the description below)

This is my beloved grandparent,

they are the best among all,

without them, i won't be here.

u all will not know how much i love them.

they care about me,

i unable to describe it, they are just the best.

This is my "Pak gung and pak po". I not really sure how to describe the word in english,

i think the best is call them my grandparent,

they are my grandfather brother and the wife.

They are also the 1 that i love,

last time, my "pak po" take care of me when i stay at hometown,

there is one time, i remember i stuck in the kindergarden when it rain superb heavy,

my pak po, know that i will be scared coz i just 5 years old,

she purpously ride bicycle bring umbrella come and find me.

and accompany me , although the kindergarden teacher is there,

thanks for everything

and,

not to forget, happy birthday ! my dear "Pak Po" 61 years old.

wish you every year stay healthy

and of course, this is my family.

;)!

nothing to describe,

they are always with me,

and i love this picture so much <3 p="">

;)

guess why?

in my dad brother and sister,

this is her the 2nd eldest because my dad is the eldest,

and she is also the eldest gugu for me.

i called her as "mi gugu" in hakka.

and the little kid there,

is his grand children ;)

amazing and he is so cute! 

This is my uncle/ Suk suk, as how i call him in hakka,

and also my suk meh, last time when i young, they use to said,

i look like my uncle x)!

looks the same?

haha

Ling gugu, the 4th eldest in the family :)!

the best memories is when my gugu married,

i am the 1 that open the car door :)

miss that moment

haha, its fun when u think back about it

they are amazing.

She is the youngest among my dad's brother and sister.:)

i called her as *yen gugu*

cool face :)

peace

Last time used to stay with them at Johor for 2 months during the holiday

;), and they take care of me last time <3 p="">

 Ping suk suk

both of them are Ping suk suk and carol gugu,

they are my Pak po and pak gung, son and daughter.:)

we still very close to each other

especially with carol gugu,

she used to teach me for tuition,

and give me a lot of advice,

if anything, she will be the one there and give me advice.:)

thanks for everything and ping suk suk :)

The Chong's *keturunan* xD!

all lenglui and lengzai!

opps, only got 1 lengzai only there xD! 

*perasan*

ahahahahah!

RANDOM PICTURE

i found this picture very nice ;)

beloved family :)

he is cute and adorable right?

:)

i like his hair , my yen gugu youngest son

 and not to forget, left side of the head, there is a *star* shape of hair there.

so cute

and of course,

this is my family

the best 

<3 p="">

Chong's Family

I blog again,
today really not in a mood.
It seems ok for me but not for me also
argh,ignore what crazy thing i said.

Finish my part time job currently
gain quite alot experience from the job
I quite satisfied for it.
Market research company really fun in another way.
But,
so fast,
class going to reopen again.
I not really satisfied with last sem exam,
though can get at least 2 B,
but,
aiks.
dissapointed.

hmmm, Not really in a mood today,
not because i dont want,
Is i still under control,
i actually want to watch that movie also,
but time, really make me cannot,
i hope i am like u all,
got freedom, can do anything u all want.
Sometime i really envy about u all >.<
i wish i can get that kind of life too,
but its tough for me.
I still need to do my responsibility,
follow people order, although i make u all dishappy,
i also not happy as well.
it make me feel that , i really a troublesome guy that bring a troublesome life to people.
so shit of my life.


I dont know why i still do it although u do that to me.
u make me feel like,
when u need me to do something, u will find for me,
when u want a listener, u will find for me.
but i know u know that,
no matter what happen,
i still will do something for u.
that is no reason for me to stop.
although u feel like u can make me hate u,
or angry u.
yeah, sometime i got that kind of feeling.
but i still go on with it.
I never stop or care about u
i no need to find a reason to care about u.
Peace

Nothing is perfect,

Human make mistake,

But the most important, learn from mistake

we might mistake once, twice or more,

but, its important to learn something from it each time we make mistake.

I do.

Including in a relationship,

Love someone, although the girl/guy ignore u,

we still will not give up,

We might think ,

oh yeah,

i am dumb enough for that.

But

we will do it for no reason.

sigh

I keep quiet,
doesn't mean i don't care.
I act nothing happen, 
doesn't mean i cannot feel it.
I care about u, 
no one can understand about it,
I just need you to know,
I will be there, whenever u need me.
Sincere from my heart.


hmmm,
Holiday mood is totally gone,
screw up this sem holiday,
not really in the mood at all,
It just 2 weeks,
and i don't know what to enjoy also.
Not enough budget to spend for this holiday
>.<
Need to work,end up
working in marketing department.
aiks, better than nothing.
At least get some money and experience.
and its fun to work there too.x)!

Qing Ming,

Went back pusing with my parents,
I never went back to qing ming more than 4 years d,
Since the day, when my greatgrandmum pass away.
I still remember that day till now,
a day after Joint Venture 08, which fall in 31 August 2008, and also known as Merdeka in Malaysia
she is my best greatgrandma ever,
i still remember all the sweet memories between us. <3 p="">A short day at home town,
but it was a good day.
I enjoyed there with my grandparents.
Some picture

 having fun with my uncle,spend time with him chatting

the thing from my greatgrandma and moyang :)

People used to said how suck its my hometown,

the place its very ugly,

or its disgusting,

or whatever u call that,

but i can tell u here,

that is my favourite place.

Its the best ever place for me since i have born,

i grown up there,

no matter condition is there,

it make me feel that, i am really at home, at someplace that i can hang on with.

I just need tell myself 1 reason,

This place is build since 1970,

and almost 40 years,

its still a good place for people to stay.

What to expected somemore ?

expected a brick house?

a air conditoner house?

As long as i can stay,

its good enough <3 p="">

right hand view,last time,this place is surround by trees,but now no more.

The front view

Bath room view,yeah the bath room is separate with the house.

but its still a good place.

i love my hometown <3 p="">

I don't want to be spend so much to change myself
I just want to be who i am
:)
as easy as that! and i love that!

I still remain
the guy that whatever u all call me
idiot,dumb,stupid,fat,tall,cool,handsome,
x)
is just something u all describe me.
I only know,
i got something special,
that most of u all don't know
;)

peace

-signing off-

SO LONG x blog
x)!
miss me ?

hahaha, so freaking exhausted !
Today just finish my final,
although my last paper,
i really screw up!
speechless!
i don't know what i trying to said also
what i know,
i just write and write and write.
thats all i need to do!
hahaha

Holiday 2 weeeeeeeks
but it seems to be very short,
i feel like,
i got nothing to do also

ahh
ahhh
ahhhh


ok, sleep time x)!

btw, thanks for introduce the song x)!
The ending still stuck in my mind,
although i don't want to comment anything about it
:)

I'm back home,
after a few hour out.
Well x)!
quite enjoy with my cousin today, once in awhile,
need to go out with them, they stay with me,
sometime, go out with them,also really fun.
I had fun just now,
Its different when i go out with my friends.
With a big bunch of friends,
most of the time,they will be teasing me and make me speechless.
Its like, i also dislike when people tease me almost all the time when i go out,
Once in awhile ok lah,
sometime,i try before, no matter at which part also kena such as inside car,mall or any other place.
Although i don't really care about it, i hear and i just ignore it only.
If its joke,i dont care.. dont know how to explain bah..
The best its just keep quiet and ignore it.

Watched 2 movie with my cousin.x)
1 of them is Jack the Giant Slayer.
Overall not bad that movie,
A good rating for it.

and the other is
Spiders 3D
this is really RUBBISH show!
worst,suck!
waste money!

:)
Enjoy when u still can,
There is always someone care about you,
Somewhere around you.
x)

Appreciate something in front of you,
If not,it will just gone disappears in front of you.
If you don't appreciate what you have in front of you now,
I can said, you will regret later on in your life.
If mention about me?yes,i also regret i did not appreciate something.
Why this thing happen to me?
However,
I believe behind this, there is always a reason.
A reason behind it.

Secret,
I keep secret,opps..not all the secret.
But somehow,
its a kind of secret that is really important in my life.
Don't ask me what is my secret,
because,if i said it out,
it will not be secret anymore.

Just be the way you are
you will feel more happy in your life.
-signing off-

x)!

another great day instead in this weeks,

Although i am tired, but i think its worth for it,

Last week its really hell of the week for me,

A bad week after CNY, alot of assignment to follow up, and presentation as well.

However,its worth,because i already found out my Business Law Assignment mark which i quite satisfy.

Only AE midterm and OB marks haven know.

hmmm,

Last sunday its the final day of CNY!

or just called it as Chap Goh Mei,or happy valentine in chinese calendar.

That day was good enough,although i spend half of the day do assignment.

but at night, went to Taman Jaya with mc,philip and tw.

Although they tease me alot , but i think,nothing wrong with it.

They want to said, just let them.

I be who am i, that is good enough.

Sometime, fight back or said it out,it just an excuse.

Why dont i just be quiet.that is good enough x)!

because all of them is my superb close friend.Which i really appreciate it.

hmmm, nothing much to do. i never plan to take any oranges on that day.

What i plan to do , is just go and  have an experience about it.

In the same time,

see some hot girl x) *NORMAL*

end up, we bought a mini "kuo ming tan" to light it.

That is what mc help me to wrote on the surface.

I will said, 

everything is true,

including the last 2 sentence.

Because its just something which i don't know how to explain.

well, I admit it...

hmmm,
this few days,
there is 1 video which getting quite famous ,
although the view did not reach 1 million.
But its worth it,because the video its meaningful,
I saw someone post the video quite long already,
but i ignore it,because i look at the title,
its like, making me thinking back the past.
Although after i watch,got some detail inside that is quite true.
oh yeah,
the title for it is

中学生谈恋爱 Students Fall In Love

I think for a malaysian to create this video,can consider amazing .
It make me think back of my past,
what have i done in my secondary school relationship.
it is a perfect time.
Although in the story,
i admit most of its really true and some of it ,
i admit it link to me as well.
Love?
Think of it again :)
The ending of the story.make me really touch,
because although i spend roughly 30 minute to watch.
Its worth it.
 

 

Now i think
Its the best time for me to blog,
once in awhile, less reader will make me feel more comfort.
Chinese New Year ending soon,
and my  class official start in 1 week time,
When i think back, What have i done for this week,
really amazing,
What i do normally?
Gamble, Pai Nien, hang around with friend lo.
This year a bit different,
although last year i got someone to accompany,
This year no more, But i went to my friend house at ipoh, hang around at ipoh with mc and ivory.
A good trip at ipoh .
hmmm.
This year Valentine days fall on a few days after cny,
for the first time after so long,
i no need to bother about it.
This is the day,
which i actually relax,
playing with friend, and lepak when i still can.

Nothing much to blog nowadays,
because my mood is not there to blog about.

PS: Don't ask me why, I just know, i am who i am.

<3 font="">

Happy Valentine x)

and of course

Happy Chinese New Year too~

x)

update sooon~   

Happy Chinese New Year TERLEBIH DAHULU!
x)

Few more days
before cny
this month will be another terrible month for me.
I wonder how tough will it be ?
Well,
Just hope everything will be alright x)

And

Get angpow time ^^

In a sudden,
From no where,
I think of u :)
Who is the U?
a lot people might think of u,
but
Its just someone that i miss :)
Didn't heard about your news very long already,
Once in awhile,
i want ask
:)
How are u?
Peace ^^

A great day,
Today went badminton,
well,
at least its fun for me :)
hmm,i actually quite a numbers of day did not update my blog.
I don't really have much to write
unless i am a freaking hell pro writer,BUT
i am not,
i use my blog
to describe what i think,
Because i think that is the best choice ever,
not everyone willing to listen,
blog will be the only partner that i have.
to share it out.
thats all i need.

I got no plan what to do now,
This few days,
although i am tired,
but i enjoy it,
I work again.
No work really hard to survive.
that is life,
a real tough life that is hard for me to handle.

Hmmm,today was actually quite fun,
went to PWTC,
to listen some talk,
i actually though it will be a freaking interesting talk because PM is there as well
But end up,
i think,ok only lo
just a normal speech
a long speech by PM
=.=

took a few picture there.

 

 Me,Kenji,Ko Li and Bryan

 

Group picture from UC-KDU

 

Me and Ko Li 

No choice,after everything,

take picture is the best thing x)

Emo boy?
quite true,a failure in everything
make me feel the worst ever thing happen in my life.

I fail in everything,
Although i sound very happy today,
but i actually realise,
no people support me,
Once in a while,
I want people to understand it,
A guy need to be care some how,
but who will do it?
I am nothing, It's like dust that no one care about.
I actually think again,
who actually really care about me?
Friends is a bunch of friend that can be trusted,
They can help u all the time ,
But it won't help u in solving some feeling problem or somehow ,
they can make it worst.
Criticism  sometime make thing get worst.
I not joking,the fact is,no one really can care about what i think,unless me alone.
I need to settle all those thing alone.
Parents and friends do not really help all the time,
I wish got people that really understand me and can talk about...
Life suck.

My life is as worst as a piece of rubbish.
Btw,
Happy Birthday mum ~
and to u too.

A dissapointed day,
finally another week had end, really tough,
need to study and understand alot of thing
Not in the mood of doing anything at all also
this whole week,
almost everyday morning class
Until evening
Hardly got time to think other thing
somehow, once in awhile,
i think about u,
when i see the date,
i just realise,
almost 1 month since that day,
i wonder how long will u think about u
=/
i wish u stop thinking about that now.

 hmmm
i still look like small kid meh?
i am a girl meh?
really no comment.
sometime,
my grandma can think better than her wei!
my grandma tell me, ur mum is "aunty thinking"
i laugh like mad,come on.
my grandma also can think open,she can understand what in our mind,
and u?
still back with all those all generation aunty thinking?
everyday be modern,
but i don't see anything different unless u stay in the city.
thats all i can said.

hmmm,
Quite busy for the past few days.
Attend the MIBPC workshop at KDU.
Really tired,
But its worth.
After the whole program,it make me understand alot of thing,
Sometimes,what we think cannot be in the same way,
We have a lot of concept and need to change it.
If the first way cannot work,
Go ahead and start the second way.
That is the way to achieve success in life

A good experience,
and now i trying to build something for it,
IF is not success,i still will be happy
oh man,business plan AGAIN!
no worries for that, i going to try harder and do

*Life is short, appreciate everything that its worth for us "

LOVE
1 word,
1 whole book to describe,
1 whole life to prove it,
Most important,Can u really understand it?

I couldn't understand it at all.
I hope someone can really stand up and explain to me,
If u really can explain,
Can u do it?

That is something that cannot be answer by anyone.
Because,
Its just unique?
haha.

From my point of view,
Each time i receive a msg she is tired/sick or other thing.
I really want to care about her.
I wanted, but i don't have the chance and braveness since that days.
Its already quite sometime,
But don't know why i still think of you.
Although in your heart, there is other people.
But i don't think that is wrong.
I love the way you are , and happy when you manage to find someone u love :)
Heart feel bitter, but its worth as long as you are happy :)
I think nothing it's more special that this kind of feeling.
PEACE

Class already begin,
Timetable really pack,
due to short sem..
>.< !
Most probably need study really hard for this sem.
Cannot slack anymore.
That is the problem of studying...
Unlike last time anymore,
Slack too much= results also drop.

"xP' and ">.<" make me remember of something :)
PEACE

Few days didn't blog.
Don't really have the mood to blog for the past few days.
Exhausted.
After so many days making Chinese New Year cookies.
Can u believe it?
This time only doing 1 type of cookies.
2 days =100+ tin
I think my mum want to achieve 250 =.=
come on~
EXHAUSTED, but it's worth it.
That is the end of the product :)

Hmm Hmm Hmm,
A lot thing happen in a sudden,
well, nothing much i can do :)
Times passing so fast..
So fast reach January 6th, and i going to start my course tomorrow.
DAMN! i haven't enjoy enough yet.
I still want to play more :(

Hmm,I saw the post yesterday,
I feel stunned,and i think back,It is me?
Then i think, i didn't contact with her so long already,It's imposible to be me,
I did nothing,
Well.. Although i don't know what is the full meaning.
But it make me remember back something.
And the NO its just the answer.
I only can look at it and not dare to "like" it.
Well,
Thanks to my friend that accompany me yesterday,
That is the reason why i become better :)
hehe,yeah, u can said it out to anyone,
But i still who i am :)

Move On Sai Khong,
Don't stay behind anymore.
Keep the darkness away from you,
Find the light.
 -random-
well, think back what happen in 2012,
really make me unhappy.
A lot of bad thing happen.
I actually will think again,
Why u want to happen? Why 2012 need to happen? Although the world never end because of dooms day,
Some part of my life already ended by it.
Well,
Why so hard?
Why don't just the whole world explode and really all die?
Then no more worries anymore.
I can smile all the time,
I can act nothing happen,
But what i really want, who knows?
I think no people will understand me.
I cannot gaming 24/7, I cannot study 24/7, But i can miss you 24/7
That is the fact.A real ouch is in the heart, a feeling that u cannot describe it.
More than a week already since that day,in another sentence, Its already a year?
i still continue my life as usual,hang out with friend.
counting the time pass and wait to get older.?
I hope i never regret what has happen to me in the past.
I been in this world for 20 years+,
in this 20 years, what is my most memorable thing that happen?
Really no comment about it. Sometime its just so sweet, in the same time, it can be so bitter as well.
When it is sweet, no matter how tough you are , how sad you are, it will still make u laugh or smile ;)
When it is bitter, it will only bring a negative side thinking.*avoid thinking about this*
This year, i need to change myself,Or i should mention, I need to improve myself to be better.
I not going to be the same person for 2012.
Nothing will be the same anymore,
I want to change
Change it,and be success.
That is a realy challenge for 2013.

The fact now is, and the most important message i want to said it out.
I still miss you although u ignore me,
I still think of you no matter what happen .
I still never forget you although quite long we didn't chat with each other.
That is something that i need to mention.
If i had a chance,
I will still miss u :), although i won't get any reply.
because what i know, Missing people got no wrong :)
and i know that i am doing the right thing.
As long as you are happy with what is your choice.
I will be happy as part of you
Peace.