lying?

Actually i'd been doing very great today.
But just in a sudden,I saw something which i don't want to see.
After i saw that picture,I realise I haven't let go.
Is not under my control anymore.It is something that i cannot change.It is a real life.
A real pain.
Betrayed/lying is a suitable word that i realise.
I'm not stupid and i know what will happen in the future.
And now i know already.
That is the answer.The real answer.
I though i manage to let it go,But it is really hard.
saw that picture make me remember what happen.
And i proud that yesterday i didn't went to that place with my friend.
If not,firework sure happen.